Hard

Life is hard.

Simple, yet so very true. We have been struggling with our 11 year old lately and it is really getting to me. There are so many good times, yet when something goes wrong, that is all I can think of. I replay it in my mind. What could I have done differently and it just brings me down.
I want to be the mom that doesn't lose my cool. I want to be the mom who can discipline without feeling the guilt or anger behind it. Sometimes I can and I am so very proud of myself... "I've done it! I'll keep doing it this way!" I'll say to myself, yet then I'll have a night like tonight and I am so very disappointed in myself.

I love this boy.

I truly do... I don't want to be too harsh, yet when I don't give hefty consequences, he still acts the same.
All the information I have read about ADHD says that consequences need to be swift and severe. It doesn't make me feel any better about it though.

Life is hard.